why?

Why...

Do we let ourself got fat...
Do we take it when people try to bring us down..
Dont we do something...
Do we always say.."i will start tomorrow..."

WHY?Why?Why?

getting fixed

i getting my internet fixed...
love n i moved in to beautiful house...
it was so beautiful..
love bought it last two years...
its not like last apartment...
crowded.. ppl alwayz busy goin here n there...
we have our own garage.. fit mine n his car...

but most of all i love the courtyard...
its not that huge...
but 20x20 feet courtyard can make a wonder...
i can even naked there.. heeee without nobody looking...
sips cup a tea there..
i simply love the courtyard... =)

cheating?

Okay... If u all follow me for quite sometime
You will know by now im in a steady relationship
With my boyfriends... I usually called him Love...
And also you will know i habe a gym buddy...
Its a guy... Last Friday, we as usual hang out at gym...
Doing exercise... And let jz call my gym buddy "matt"
He is a very nice guy n for the 1001th time invited
Me for some coffee.. And this time i say okay...(why?why?)
I chose starbucks because its the nearest to the gym...
We talked for hours until i carelessly spill my coffee...
He offered his place bcos he lives near. So i followed.
His flat is nice. He live alone. He also gave me his shirt.
I felt so uncomfortable n would like to excuse myself... When
Matt grab my waist n kissed me! N to my suprise i kissed him back.
For few second then i hold back n left witout a word.
He kept texting me said sorry n all..
Its not that im angry with him.. I confused with myself...
What actually happen? Why i felt like enjoying his kiss?
Till today i hasnt set my foot in the gym.
Im afraid i might saw him. Im afraid things will happen again...
I also really love Love...

Is this consider cheating?

Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.6

cravings?

Hello dear.... I was reading other blogs.
And I finally realized that my craving usually
At around 10 to 11 am and 4 to 6pm....
That is the time I usually wanna eat something....

So.. gonna do something bout this..
maybe i should skip lunch and eat at 4pm?

hew hew.....

haters and thinspo..

well... i blog walking today... like alot...
and i came a cross few blog that have to handle with haters..
i so far hasnt came across this unmanner thing
(ya u came n said all the bad thing to the owner of the blog)
i dun agree at all.. if what we are doing makes us happy,
then why not?

Life.MC. exercise

hello there...

LIFE
i try few times to see the person incharge of my application
but everyday he isnt at his workplace. said by his assistant
that he on leave.. or busy.. or went out... FUCK OFF.

MC
and for MC i manage to be until day 4 only..
i really missed my coffee... i rather sips on coffee
all day than on spicy lemonade... but i MUST say
that i had a blast detox. it really clear my colon...
and i weight less 4lbs.. but 2lbs comes back after
three days.. but im still trying to keep it off...

EXERCISE
after lotsa blogwalking today....
i decided that i need an exercise...
its essential to my body..
i dun wanna have flabby skin
i kinda feel that what is i lose weigt my skin
is so shabby.... huhu i sure dun want that to happen!

STRESS! STRESS! STRESS!

ARHHH IM SO STRESS TODAY...

i emailed person in charge of my application for further study..

he said im not PERMANENT!!!!!

what the hell. i need to confront him now.

MC day one

yes... yesterday i had lax tea...
and then the salt water flush this morning...
words cannot explain how terrible is the taste..
yet i still finished it..

and then i waited about 1 hour...
im running to toilet...

hew hew hew...
 still running....
i never know my colon have this much of waste...

p/s: winter i emailed u yesterday. i hope to hear from you soon =)

preparing for mc

Okay.. Tomorrow is my first day on mc...
I drank laxatives tea...
Now im going to bed...
Tomorrow morning gonna have
Sea water flush...
Ohhhh

Stay strong :-)

Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.6

I will never..

i will never....eat bread
i will never....eat rice
i will never....eat burger
i will never....eat fat
i will never....drink sugar
i will never....eat ice cream
i will never....eat cake
i will never....bake cake
i will never....bake bread
i will never....quit dieting
i will never....betrayed myself..

today im very stressfull.... my application for furtering study is not pass..
i didnt apply for leave, fees or anything.. im fucking hate this company..
im so stressfull.. i dont wanna eat anymore..