updates

I jz bot fabloss.
Its a diet pill.
Appetite supressant

Stay strong

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jared weight loss

yep u heard me...

he put on 30lbs on purpose n lose it all..

i do some research..

that he fast for 10 days..

on raw food.. make sure its tasteless..

nut... grapes.. all day..

he is vegan n strictly vegetarian...

so...

im gonna give it a go.. 

VEGAN fer 1 week...!

The Kill

my fave song.. from 30sc to mars...
i damn admiring his voice..
n the vocalist look damn good...

nway today was a *YAY*

i had chicken+mushroom for brekkie(83 kcal)
coffee+low fat milk  that was 80 kcal

and love kept nagging me to go lunch with him..
but..."owh im really sorry darling... im super busy"..

with thinspo all the time.. *grinning*

love all
and plz stay strong
bcos
we're doing this for ourself...

~_~

throwing food

nowadays i have developed new habit..

that i like to throw food...

i know its unpolite...

ex:

its lunch time and my stomach

was growling.. so i went cafe...

bougt chilli tofu strip..and a cup of mixed fruit.

bring it to my desk. 

and then i look at those.. 

im hungry but cant be eating both..

chilli tofu strip was cooked in oil n chilli

while fruit are all natural...

so i throw the tofu strip. 

ate half cup of fruit..

the other half at 4pm...

but im glad i did it.

i dun wanna be fatter.. 

i wanna lose weight..

i wanna be beautifull..

thinspo

everyday i watch this for hours...
to get me on track...

sometime i think im lesbo! TEEHEE

Gonna be there one day..

im absolutely gonna be there one fine day...

confession

hello dear...

i havent been upate for a while..
my life was as bz as hell..

working on weekday..
classes on weekend...

and i have to confess...
tat i have to a stage that i ate
very little food(well for me..)

breakfast i usually have 1 egg, i micro for 1 min on high. no fat added...
for lunch i always have coffee or coke lite... dinner is anything love bought/i cooked..
only 4tbsp..

n my weight was going down so fast...
i lost 2lb in 2 days...

i hope to maintain this way until i reach my UGW...110lbs

stay stong n think thin

wtf

I made a new rules
Cos today my frens uploaded my pic
On FB... N boy.. I still fat
So starting tomorrow..
1. Max laxatives
2. Only plain or coke light
3. Dorsett muesli for brekkie(half serving bout 150kcal)

Buying battery for my weight scales

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WTF???

When i log in today i got this msg. What happen?
I miss all my pal :'(
Now i have to start from beginning

Fuck

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reachED mini goal

Yep. Im kinda busy nowaday.
Im futhering my study... Bachelor...
Lotsa assignment.
I think asignmnt is good
Cos it kept me busy
So that i dont think bout food often
And i reach my mini goal.
Acc it was last week
Im under 190... Finally...

And then my first reward i got for myself was....
:-) nice red bracelet
:-) nice blue jeans!

Red bracelet kept me on my target
Whenever i wore the bracelet i dont eat
That is the way i respect the red bracelet
Only plain water allowed

I love you all...

P/s: welcome to new follower. ILU :-)

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keetlebell n thank you to Winter

Does anyone hear bout keetlebell?
Well think i gonna invest in em
Cos its gonna do so much benefits..
Tone tummy... Tight... Arms... o_O

Cant wait to get em:-):-):-)

N also i jz noticed that winter from

http://winterssecretworld.blogspot.com/

Has me in a bloglist. Tq darling...
I wanna do the same thing..
But dont know how to (shame)
But im gonna try to google it :-)

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appreciate

I wonder when is the last time everyone
Have to accept food...
Jz because we appreciate our friend
(gone trough hard to prepare the food)
It happen sooo many time...
Since i transfer to college..
Im a newbie...
I dont want ppl to see me.... As..
Unpolite?
But it does make me hate myself after that..
N the story began..
Purging...
Max laxative doses everyday...

Hate me. Hate me.
I have no willpower to say... NO
:-(:-(:-(:-(:-(:-(:-(:-(:-(:-(;-);-);-);-):-(
:-\:-\:-\:-\:-\:-\:-\:-\:-\:-\:-\:-\:-\
:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(

To Winter:
Tq darling... I mean sometime i jz hate my workplace. Its the place that i eat most of my meal.. My boss n frens was generous too.. Sometime too generous.. Myb i jz declare myself on diet. Then thing will be easier for me :-)

N welcome to the new follower:-)

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party!

Okay. So my student at the college organise a party
Today...
Morning i dont eat
Lunch i dont eat

The party at 3pm...
They served
tomatoes rice pilaf
Spicy chicken chillies
Cucumber salad
Chicken skewer (trend lately)
Coconut clear pudding
And cold drinks...

So i ate..
Small portion...
And...
Now i feel disgusting!

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scared

Hi all...
Today i behave...
I dont eat breakkie...
I dont eat lunch...
I eat during tea time..
Only cos my boss is giving us a treat..
I check with fitness pals..
One serving bout 106...
I drink one coffee... 30kcal..
One tea... 30kcal..
So my intake under 200 i say..

Then i dont want any dinner..
i havent weight myself..
Im too scared after that one pound gain..
But tomorrow ill weight myself
If not i dont know my progress

To winter..
Yes dear.. The rice n chicken taste sooo good.. Especially after my series of egg-diet soda-seaweed only.. Hew hew...
N tq on your advice :-)

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Day out wit mom

Yesterday was suck
I went out with mom
And she treat me lunch..
She ordered me a nice
White rice.. Fried Chicken... Curry...
I ate half of the portion...
Then we went shopping..
At least four hour...

Then dinner..
We had rice (again!!)
A chicken skewer...
I had bout four... Its one serving..

Dz morning i weight myself
And its a gain!
I gain one pound!
So today i had two coffee
Two cup watermelon
Thats it...
Dz week i aim to lose at least
Four lbs...
Hew..hew..
I hate weekend(told ya)

To:

Winter: yes darling, thank god i only ate everything half. If not i dont know how much i will gain today

Lindsey: if only my mom think im fat. But my mom doesnt care. Still i love her n itll be heart broken for her if she know what i have done recently..

Ruby: thank you darling.. I do need lotsa support! Tq :-)

Thank you for dropping by ;-)

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socialize

I mean i know i suppose to
Became anti social

But when the occasion was...
What we called it..
Desperate?
What shud i do?
My mom coming tomorrow
She gonna bring out for lunch
......... :'(

And to linsey:

At first i had no intentions to have a mini goal. But then i kept failing cos the GW seems so far away n make me wanna give up. So i decided to have mini goal. N it keep me in focus. :-)

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i hate weekend

I do

We all know weekend is the day
We hang out with frens..
I ate alot of carbs
But i didnt take over 1000kcal
I had one egg in the morning
Two coffee
One low fat yoghurt
Bout half cup fries
Fuck me.

Then love brought thai noodle soup
I picked the protein(seafood/chicken)
Then i left table
He seem upset cos i never
Leave table like that
Im jz not in the mood of eating
After i ate the fries
At least i shud eat good carbs.

Fuck. Fuck. Curse me.

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loser n winner

Yep. Dz morning i weight myself..
N im happy with the number...
I started new journey at 198lbs..
And today im 194lbs!!!!!! :-)

I lose a bit n have lot more to lose...
194 is closer to my mini goal.

For today i havent yet have my one egg..
Gonna wait till im really hungry
But im sipping my coffee...
:-)

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second day :-)

My second day was okay...
I had one egg for breakfast
Then diet soda for lunch
And salmon again for dinner
I had two coffee
With one kcal sweetener

Tomorrow i dont even want salmon
Maube i ll change to unsweetened tea.
And if i can, gonna switch diet soda to coffee..
But actually diet soda fill me up alot
But i also read somewhere that its not good
For our body. Is it true?

And to Winter comment,

Sometime i feel that i can lose weight fast, but then it ll stall for few weeks, then only it ll go down again... Sometime it make me impatient n the purging episode began. I really dont want purging cos after each purge ive headache, mood swings n binge again :'(

As for seaweed, i really like them alot. Cos it so low cal n i sometime not hungry, but wanna nibble something. So i ll always have it n my bag, office or kitchen. And i bought seaweed at supermarket, 'asean corner' they call it. :-)

Tq for dropping by XD

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review day one high protein diet

Im shocked that i made it!
So today i had one egg, one zero soda, one coffee n one salmon
Morning was okay, noon was X-(

When i felt damn hungry,
I decided to brisk walk
Bout two miles...
Then i saw new superstore..
Stopped there...
N hell i was UNLUCKY
theres small mexican stall inside...
The smell of nanchos... Burrito... Pizza..
Took me a while before i can stop staring at the stall..
But im glad i dun give up my first day

Then otw home i stopped at other supermarket
I need to restock my one kcal sweetener.
Then... o_O
I saw a salmon.. Freshly cut...
I turn around...
N then i came back n im 5dollar penniless...
I went home. Grilled the salmon.
N finish eating in less than 3minutes!
boy i was hungry..

But still im proud of myself.
At least i dun eat other trash
So im saying my intake under 200

I also read somewhere that if i allowed
Myself 100-300 kcal a day i can lose weight in no time.
So we ll see bout that.

P/s: i do ate seaweed. 15kcal ;-

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this is killing me

Yes... Its lunch time. N im sipping my pepsi max..
Since dz was the first day...
I felt mile headache...
My hands are shaking
My stomach making sounds...

But i wont give up.
Not an option.
To ditch my hunger i ate seaweed...
A lot of seaweed..
Checked the nutrition, even if ate whole pack,
It ll only cost me 16kcal. Thank god.
Its raining outside..
Maybe im gonna make some hot coffee later...

I planned to do this for at least ten days.
I want to lose at least ten lbs...

Praying.. Praying...

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hi protein diet

I dunno bout u all..
But i ve came across dz diet many time..
So i think why dont i jz give it a try..
Its easy n i dont have to cook or pack a lunch

B : 1 egg
L : 1diet drink (any)
D : 1 unsweetened tea

Dz morning i had 1 egg... I put in a small bowl... Add lotsa seaweed... Then microwave for
1min (medium).. The egg itself was plain, but the seaweed is yummy.. So have no problem.

For lunch i bought myself pepsi max (0cal)...
Cos pepsi max got no sodium... I dont want sodium to hold water inside my body..

SO FAR SO GOOD??? i ll update later...

And i notice new follower... Welcome all.. Im looking forward to follow your blog also.. :-)

Welcome... Welcome.. Welcome...

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im good until...

Well today im good... Stay under 500kcal..
Then 5pm love come home n he bought fries n wedges...
I ate bout 200kcal.. Well screw me...
When will i learn to say no to those disgusthing oily food?

On the side...
Welcome to Kate n Lindsey...
I really love your blog...
Looking forward to supporting each other...

Love n care :-)

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grilled chicken salad

Today im trying to fast...
Things well okay i,got serious headache during noon..
So i went to nearest convenient store,,,
Looking for something...
Bread... 198kcal... Wtf..
Drink... At least 99kcal... Wtf...
Chips? I dun have to tell u all.. 473 kcal at one serving...
So i grabbed pepsi max.. Zero kcal...
But that doesnt cure my headache...
So i took 500mg pcm... Sleep... Then im okay

Dinner is gilled chic salad...
Chicken marinated with thyme, lemon, salt n olive oil..
Then grilled...
Salad i chopped baby romaine n shallots

Voila!

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pic tomorrow

Tomorrow after i cook dinner i ll post a pic of the meal
Its to give u all some pic how healthy look like(for me at least)

I know some people like low carbs diet..
But i can digest deep fried chicken, beef patty n mayones alolt...
I also saw they ate egg like 4-6 pc per day...
I love egg.. But no more than 2 per day..
But for now im retricting oil n sugar also...
But not carbs... Yes.. I cant live without those..
But on slow digested..
Like wholemeal bread.. Rice.. Pasta...
Only one pcs bread, or 4oz rice for each meal..
But i also love potato(white)... But i was low cal..
So i dun mindeating it..

Remember.. Portion....

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500kcal

Today i manage to stay under 500..
That was yay for me...
I ate boiled potato,chicken n cabbage..
Not that yummy...
But filling..

N i manage to stay away from sweet drinks...
But i did ate 5pcs small choc cookies..
That was yummy so i dun regret that at all :-)
N not gonna weight myself for a while...

As for laxatives, im still taking it before bed..
The packing said its not really a laxatives...
Jz a herbal n traditionally prepared...
For losing weight n mile laxatives..
So it was perfect for me.
I have problem in.... U know... Poopoo?
So:-)it helps me... Like a lot...

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result

Told ya i bought a laxatives.
Jz now i could'nt help but weight myself...
I weight less 0.7lbs than i am dz morning?

Hurm.. Is my scale telling the truth or not

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step 1...

So i decided to take small step to win big...

First step-------no more sweet food,drinks.

Cos i dont really eat much.
It jz that i have a sweet tooth
So my weight stall even tho i ate small..
So from now on more...
Sugar... Sweets... Like cake... Pastry...
N my all time fave.... White coffee...

Today i had bread for breakfast
Then like two cookies for lunch...
Erm.., small serving but... Carbs is carbs..
Gotta stay away from them...

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quick update

Hi all.. I cant update much tonite..
Cos while im bloggwalking love come..
We cuddle.. N im feeling... Aroused?

:-):-):-) so...

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comment and new follower

Tq to lovely bones n ruby for dropping your comment..
I tought nobody really read my blog...

And tq to winter also...
Welcome darling

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Corn and Chicken Rice Porridge/Seaweed

This ex of low kcal food...
Dz instant porridge have only 117kcal.
Plus i add seaweed(wasabi flavor) for some alkaline factor..
And i have no idea that it was so yummy... And...

most important... Its DAMN FILLING!

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laxatives

I jz bought my first laxatives..
Once daily.. Three pills...
Gonna try tonite.
I hope that will bring good thing in my life..

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hint

Who here have same interest with me? Well yes i love outdoor activities...
Especially mount climbing...
So to ma it short... There s one guy i know...
I admit he s cute... Tall.. Fair n very gentleman..
I met him at the gym bout five month ago..
He kept asking me out..

Before he asked me to be his date for frens bday party..
I refused..
He asked me if i wanna jog outside together..
I refused..
He wanna have coffee with me...I refused...

Told him.. Im seeing someone...
But he cant seem to understand..
I mean he doesnt push me or make me uncomfortable...
It jz me... I felt its i l wrong love if i got out with other guy...
And i cant go out with him without have some feeling towards him...
I admit that i kinda like him too
Who wouldnt like a nice guy...

Jz now he pm me on fb
Saying that he hope to marry-----someone like me.

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creep-radiohead

If any of you havent hear that plz do...
Cos it make me so...
Comfortable hearing it...

I also wanna welcome my new
Precious follower... Hello there..
Wheneve you're from..
We are in this forever...
I love u guys..

Im blogging from medical library...
Its damn huge.. But no wifi provided(DAMN).
Today my old frens asked out for breakfast together...
So i've check the restaurant menu
And now i ve taken 400kcal...
So no more food for me today...
Last nite i had a very small dinner...
So dz morning i was like a.... Starving to death...
Did i mention yesterday i didnt had lunch also..
That was big YAY for me.. :-)

Okay,., thats all for now... Gonna do blogwalking

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cooked

Today after work i cook for love
A special tomatoes rice, spicy chicken and salsa..
Im in the mood of binge
Then his mate called n said wanna come over..
Jz hang round n watch tv together..
I served them and they emptied
All four pots of rice...
One whole chicken...
And me on the other hands get to eat
Only 2tbsp rice...
1 tiny pieces of chicken... :-)
Thanks to all four boys...

But im damn hungry...
Cos i only ate breakfast...
Now im sipping tall
Glass of cold water
With lots of ice in it
Then snack on grilled seaweed
I love em cos they got like only
15kcal per huge slice
Spicy n low cal
I hope this will fill me up till tom bfast
Cos its 9pm already..

Wish me luck girls...

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monday blues..

Yay..:-)irs mon...
Im feeling bit of monday blues...
Finish checking round my student..
Urm...

Yasterday was quite bad..
I had a binge...
But manage to stay under 1000kcal..
Today was jz okay as well..

Has taken 1tall coffee...
1/4serving noodle with egg..

Today my aim to stay under 1000kcal..
Wish me luck..:-)

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LOVE! SEX!!

Well yes if u all been following me..
I call my boyfriend "love"
We ve been living together for 5yrs..
I can feel that he really do loves me...
But he s a feeder..
When we first met i jz 53kg...
Without realizing,
My weight slowly climb up.
Highet at 90kg(WTF?)

Our sex life has'nt change a bit
He really like my body no matter at what size i am..
But i really dun feel comfy
You know what i mean..
When u had been together for long...
Your sex life tend to get----naughty:-)
I mean, we shower...sleep... Together...
So i must lose weight so that i can be comfy with
Him staring at me..
Im so ashamed.. His size never change.
I guess it bcos he s active.
Me on the other hand work at desk only..
Hurm... No exercise for years..
What i have done to my self..

Shame on me...

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today 410kcal

I manage to eat 400kcal today... More ten kcal.. Damn me...
Then  now i have to work up.

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boring saturday...

So last nite we went home...
Cuddle.. Love slept... So i went online..
Blogwalking to others blog... Thinspo obviously...
Then woke earli dz morning...

I had oranges.. Bout 50kcal...
Then sip on coffee.. 1kcal nett..
Had green tea (which i bought recently)
I taste super good... N of course zero cal in it...
Then i cooked curry egg noodle for love..
He said he s damn hungry n dont fell like eating out..
The noodle look damn good..
So i stole tiny bits of egg white.... Yummy...
While he emptying his bowl...
I had iced cafe latte... 44kcal net.

So im gonna say im pretty good today..
So far i've taken 95kcal...

Saw a guava in fridge which i bought last week..
So gonna have that later...

Gonna cont blogwalking

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failed!

Yes darling.. Tiday is a failed...
Im at moms place.
I had tosai about 120kcal... Coffee unsweetened...
Got home n munchies some dried banana... Mom bought n she asking my opinion bout the taste..
Then i jz ate.. Ate..ate..
Until half the container.
Fuck me...
Then at 5pm we had noodle with egg..
Fuck me... I cant purge at mom place. Even my portion half the serving..
I still felt.. Fuck me..
Fuck me..
Then i dont eat dinner..
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck me.

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my fave

My fave drink is coffee and 0cal sweetener..
Sometimes i think if i could jz sip
This thing all day... I ll be skinny in no time..
Hehe.. :-)
But lets be real..
Caffeine will suck your calcium out of your bone...
Your precious bone...
So i sometime took coffee with skim milk
Make sure only milk n coffee..
No sweetener..

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gain! wtf

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. I can think of nothing...
Okay i went vacay dz week.. Ate this n that...
Diorrhea... Vomitting... Headache... So much has happen..
So why im still gaining? Fuvk hell!

I tought i gain couple of lbs... Then i went
To mom place. And ate rice, chicken.. Drink orange juice..
Then i found a scale... I go naked n weigt myself
(yeah after dinner, fuck me!)
I gain 8lbs!
Fuck me. Fuck me. Fuck whale.
Then i go  bathroom. Purging.
Then i noticed i got my period.
Disgusting.
Make n coffee n sipping it now..
Im not gonna eat until sunday.
Im gonna eat some fruit
Drink only water n coffee
All only when im really hungry

Jz hoping my mom wont aspect me to eat everything she cook!

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hello blogger-droids...

Yay...! This is so fun... I can use blogger on my tablet... Yaya... Again...
Ermmm.... Now im back home. But tonite  we r goin out again cos
I promise mom im gonna come over...

On eating... I had diorrhea for four days straight... Then dz morning when
Love driving... I vomitted... Due to long journey...
Then we got home n we get real hungry and love ordered
Dominos, i ate three slices of pizza, two banana kaya n half chicken
Spaghetti... Well on my defence im on empty stomach.
Cos whatever i ate dz morning i threw it all out...

Maybe no more dinner at moms place... And did i tell u i bought new
Tea collection? Dz time its green tea... Four dif flavour...
They have mint, oolong, cream n original white roses... All in 1 box..
Im so happy... Gonna start drink them tomorrow.. As for cream they
Dont really put cream in it.. Only the smell in it..

Hehe i hope to post more soon...
Im so lovin this apps...
I love to blog.. But sometimes its hard okay..

Till then....

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testing

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plan for 27/8-2/9/12

blood type diet

break - grapefruit+coffee w brown sugar
lunch - green tea
dinner - stir fry veg

for my blood type i shud always be vegan.. then this look like detox for me. i really need detox cos my body like whale this week. really heavy. im having water retention due to my period nx week.. and also for breakfast i shud have no brown sugar... myb splenda or stevia. then for dinner its written stir fry any veg and use only one teaspoon olive oil...  i l try no salt also...

i think i shud get some exercise... even if im skinny i dun want any flabby... urm gonna think what i wanna do...

im fat n im hating everything about my body... cant wait for nx week cos this week im on vacay...

portion n blood type diet...

yessss... afterna few years on diet... off n on...
i learn that if a person want to be thin.. slim.. beautiful... they need to have portion ctrl... no matter what u want eat.. let say u wanna eat cake, eat no more than 2oz.. an ice cream.. try only to eat 1spoonfull or 2 if u really cant resist..
i saw lot of my frens going low carbs.. but they ate real much.. like 3scramble egg.. than bowl of chicken soup.. couple of chicken slice... beef patty.. what is all that? Do wanna have heart attack? That is rubbish ok. me on the other hand ate big bowl of red melon n un sweetened tea,. but that is enough fer me.. think before u make any decision..

this week im on special occasion.. which there is a lot of food and food.. so people aspect me to eat.. so i eat.. eat.. and eat... then today i have non stop diorrhea.. vomitting.. thank god.. at least i will not gaining any.. myb after so long my stomach cant accept all that.. wednesday im going to highland.. will be cold n bought lots of new dress fe me.. after that im gonna try blood type die.. hope will work fer me.. here intenet connection is so bad.. till then.. i dun even know if i can publish this.

abc day 2...

i have 500 calories today... so far i have eaten

simple ramen,a half... its about 170 kcal...

i ate half n gave the other half to my clicks..

then i drank skimmed milk 88kcal fer tea time..

now i have about 242kcal...

i shud stick to my skimmed milk 

but i got bored of it...

so maybe i l have 1 slice butterscotch n tea fe lunch.

n the other 1 slice dunring dinner..

i seldom ate it... but i believe if i stay 

under 500 its gonna be okay...

tomorrow ill have to be under 300

so thinking maybe i shud have 3pcs butterscotch

or stay with protein only.

wandering..

okay... now im hungry again..

but dun know what to eat...

fiu..fiu..fiu..

and there goes my collegues ask me fer brekkie...

glad its over...

well yasterday was quite good fer me..
got home n love asked me what i
want fer dinner. then i told him i dun wanna eat.
i only drank milk. then went bed..

he cuddled me. said nt to worry bout my weight..
i jz told him that i wanna be fit n fab..
like i used to be... he said he will fullu support me..
i felt releived... cos i hate it when he forced me to eat..
i mean come on... our working hour is different..
i ate accordingly... while he ate once a day...
so its fine fer him to eat huge dinner..

still holding...

well yes... n im fucking hungry babe...
but this id the sacrofice to beau bod...
it al mos t kill me man...
after two skimmed milk i had
one black coffee... 3kcal
 1handful of cashew nut...
fwlt twribble...drank laxatives..
havent go to toilet yet...
but i can feel the sensation...

somebody plz jz kill me...

day 1 abc

7am : skimmed milk (88kcal)
10 am : skimmed milk (88kcal)



so far so good.. 176kcal in... 324kcal left...

*cry*

im saying goodbye...

well literally i mean im saying goodbyer
to all my fat.... i really do dz time. no matter
what i do my fat jz dun wanna leave me..
i hate myself so much...
i lost 10 lbs. then gain bout six...
goddamnit...
felt bad rite now...

nway now im with the new job...
me being a tutor...
seeing my student are so tiny...
it hurts me alot... like alot...
but it inspire me alot tooo...

n now no more uniform..
i have to wear own fancy clothes...
i have very little outfit...
which me mean...


CALLING STRICT DIET NOW!

no fun

i guessed when we wrote n nobody read is no fun..:
so i decided to update here. plus im more in track when
i jot down everything here....

brekkie:skimmed milk+ coffee
brunch:tea+sardine sandwich+chic nugget n 2 pcs choc cake
dinner:?

i ate quite alot.. now there's a potluck at my office...
will i lose more weight?

A tablet n private diary!

so i jz bought myself new samsung 10.1 tablet.
i install private diary. wrote everything ther and
lock it. wrote there e'day... like.like.like.

nway im doing pescetarian diet.
kinda like vegan only fish n seafood are allowed...

gonna update later.. see ya!

Lychee and Rose..

well i admit... i never liked lychee... then i saw dz
"lychee n rose"... then i bought a sample pack....

anyway its a tea... i bought special edotion of
"vanilla" flavor... n its really make my day...

back to lychee n rose...its a mindblowing!

so sad i bought 1small sachet only...

400kcal fer tomorrow..

fat n fab???? REALLY?

well im sure u all heard bout it.
n goddamnit i hate those. it was never true.
pls listen girl. if u r fat then u r ugly.
yes im telling u now...

skinny is beau..pretty..lovely..
everything u do is beau....

so those fat ass out there pls dun post ya ugly pic anymore.
make me puke!

herbalife..herbalife..

today is my 1st time taking herbalife...
its quite pricey.. but i dun care.. i jz want
the fat off me.. i bought cappucino flavor..
nice..

brekkie: 1 serving shake
lunch: 1/2 serving rice/stir fry zucchini+egg
dinner: 1 serving shake...
10pm:2 toast+1/2 oz butter..

my intake was okay until i got VERY hungry at
10pm. damn it... but after i count them my
intake is around 700/800 kcal...
quite okay fer me fer starting..

trying damn hard!

so today is my 2nd day on adjusted ABC.
i gonna tell u. if u wanna do it. it was damn hard.
my intake today;

12pm: salmon + shitake mushroom
6pm: skimmed milk
9pm: 2 prawn + 2broccoli floret

i shud be taking 300kcal. but i think my
intake today is 400kcal. phew..phew..

fer salmon n shitake i made a soup
like dish. put lots of ginger n lemon juice
to override the fishy smell from salmon
n it was a huge succeed. the fish n shitake
was a wonderful combination.

and today i jz  could'nt bring myself
to do any exercise. my body is sore all over
due to JM 30 day shred yesterday. DAMN!

now im sipping my coffee(stevia) and cant
stop thinking....

shud i jz puke out the prawn n broccoli?

argh!

hell yes. yesterday at 1 point im so stressed
out. my mom called. my sister called. i mean
why dont they jz leave me alone.

then i gone wild n wanted to eat some
chocolate or maybe hot choc? then
i remember if i eat, then i ll have
more problem tomorrow. so i did it.
n just sip my unsweetened coffee..

YAY!

SHOPPING!!!!

but only fer food...

so today i went out with Love. cos my
healthy food is out of stock.

so i bought zucchini, cauliflower, and
shitake mushroom. im not sure how
to cook shitake but i ll browse in net.

then the most expensive of all is a
supersize prawn and norweighn salmon.
fer prawn i took 18pcs. fer salmon
i took 2 slice boneless and cured.
huuu damn expensive. but the
salmon i swear i took the biggest
and the fattest one. heeee.

cant wait to cook and eat em tomorrow...

cont from previous entry

so today im quite happy with my intake.

10am: 1/2 hard boiled egg
2pm: salmon w broccoli
7pm: skimmed milk+coffee

and i total all is 399kcal.

now im sipping my coffee(stevia only 3kcal)

and at 6pm i finished JM30 day shred.
and i felt wonderful...

so fer tomorrow i plan to keep myself under 300.
(plez...)

trying to cope!

okey. so today im trying to keep myself under 600.
cos its weekend. and my goal is lost 10lbs by nx week.

and as much as i can if im really hungry and have to
eat. i will avoid carbs. cos i cant really ctrl myself
with carbs. im sucks.

so far today i had 1 half boiled egg only.
half of it. thats all. and now im sipping
my supersize coffee+stevia only. i hope hunger
will go away..

meal plan!

so today i have to stay under 400kcal.
cos u know i wanna do the diet i mention earlier.
fer today so far i have eaten

egg M size - 90kcal
red bean 1serving - 106kcal
coffee with stevia - 3kcal so total so far is 199kcal

so i have around 200kcal more.

im planning for 1 skimmed milk 88kcal
and the other 100kcal i reserved fer something else.

and they are all beautiful..thinspo

i did not worry cos one day i know i will be there..

Skinny Girl Diet

i think i shud try dz one... afterall im desperate..

Skinny Girl Diet

This diet comes courtesy of walk_a_thin_line on xanga. She made this up because she wanted to do the ABC diet but the cals were to low for her.

Rules:

* Eat as much fruit and vegetables as you want, without counting them as calories.
* Work out at least 30 minutes, 5x a week.
* any extra calories going over the limit MUST be burned off in cardio

* weekends are in red

bought skim milk!

that was yay fer me cos i've been looking fer this so longggggg.
when i saw it i straight away grab it.

it taste good and also low in cal. only 88kcal per serving.

love it. love it. love it. as fer today meal;

brekkie: 1 kiwi
lunch:4oz white rice+1 grill fish+cucumber
4pm: went to ikea and ate set of 5pcs meatball(damn)

yes i went with Love and then i cant just dun eat.
so i ordered set of meatball(5pcs meatball,fries+lignonberry)
and yes the super delicious gravy.

so no more dinner fer me!

call me ana. call me anything!

i dont care. yes i dun give a damn bout it.
yesterday was a victory fer me. cos i ate

brekkie: 1kiwi+1orange+unsweetened coffee
lunch: 1 slice beef(fat trimmed) + cabbage
dinner: 1 slice grilled chic breast+cabbage(again)

and still i felt i i ate alot and dz morning i lost 2lbs more.
n i love it damn much!

kinda busy!

yep yep i knoe i rarely update.

but today i managed to eat clean(i think)

brekkie: 1 egg+2 wholemeal toast
lunch: 40z rice+salmon+tomatoes
dinner: chicken+tomatoes soup+1 orange

i swear the tomatoes soup was super delicious!

menu fer tomorrow..

i plan dz fer tomorrow..

brekkie: 1 egg + 1 coffee
lunch: unsweetend tea
dinner: low cal latte.

kinda liquid diet... heee

back to ana

hello all... im gonna be back to ana since eat clean bring no good
to me. i didnt lose any weight but not gaining any.

or izit i hit plateau edi???

my new addiction

Jilian Micheals 30day shred. tomorrow i l try
 with no carbs n let u all know the result. i hope can
lose a lot with that.

eat clean!

hello all, currently im in the eat clean challenge.
so i have to keep updating. update.update n update!

not so success..

today was not so success. after done JM 30 day level 1.
i felt so hungry. that i ate anything within my reach.
i not dare weight myself. will try my best tomorrow!

eat clean!

so today i start on a journey to eat clean.
as fer brekkie i had oat+milk. i wanna see how
long it can fill me up. im gonna update again tonite!

Jilian Micheals!

yep. jz finished JM 30 day shred. level 1.
i felt good. gonna try this fer 30 days.
wanna see whats its goog it gonna do to me.

i hope to break my pleateau very soon.
i felt very beau after finished the workout.
and im so happy!

ex-boyfriend!

yer. u heard me. jz now he saw my latest pic on fb.
then straight away he say i look fat! i mean why would
he said something like that? myb cos i dumped him before.

arghhhh i hate dz feelin'. i feel like a real loser..
cant wait to be thin. so tomorrow better be a good day
fer me. if not u better die!

stick to old diet

stalled

my weight loss has stall.. last week by dz time i has lost
6lbs. so i decided to keep changing my diet every week.

or maybe i shud do ABC diet,. so that i can trick my metabolism..
but for sure my diet consist of no oil at all...

during dinner i feel so longing to eat rice,fries.. etc..
but i dun want to hate myself after that.. so i ate
only banana n im happy rite now..

i dun know what happened to me now. everytime i wanna
eat, i feel so scared. i dun think so i scare to food..
it jz that like i told u ealier, i hate myself after i ate.

i kept thinking "will this pile me later?". even the
food that im staring at is FRUIT. damn it.

now i even hate chicken. that when i grilled chicken
breast, i will divide them to four, ate 1 piece and
gave the rest to love. he look worried..

i dunno what to do..

happy today

today was not bad at all... here's my meal;

brekkie: 2 wholemeal egg + 1 egg
lunch: chicken salad
dinner: 1 banana

my chicken salad consist of boiled chicken,tomato,carot,shallot.
~YUMMY~...

weight in!

today 1st thing i did was scale myself. i weigh myself.
and im so happy that i lose another 2lbs. im so happy..

why i hate myself after i ate?

i wonder if this same thing happen to anyone else?

my bad n my 1st follower.

tq to Elizabeth fer being my 1st follower. i never
tell this little secret to my frens. so im glad that
someone is reading my little secret.. tq so much dear.

erm today was okay fer me at 1st, but then.. let see
what i ate 1st;

brekkie: 2 plum + 1 coffee(unsweetened)
lunch: 1 grill chicken + cucumber
dinner: 1 grill chicken + 1 tomato.


then.. my sad story began... love asked me out
and he insisted me eating cos he said what i ate
is not enuf fer my body. so i ordered spicy chicken
soup and unsweetened lime tea.. its was okay.

but the spicy chicken soup is real SPICY.
and i gonna weight my self tomorrow morning!

morning exercise

hello frens.. today morning i went out to bought chicken,
my stock has finished. so instead of drove to store, i walked.
turns out the place is not that far. cos u know, we can
shortcut here and there. hehe

so here's my meal today:

brekkie: 1 plum
lunch: ginger grill chicken + iceberg lettuce salad + tea
dinner: 1 ginger grill chicken + 1 plum

my meal and weight in!

well guys, here;s my meal today

brekkie: 1 small plum
lunch: 1 grill chicken + tomato salad + tea
dinner: 1 grill chicken + 1 small plum.

i dun know how to estimate my calories intake.
but i hope its less than 500kcal..

as fer my weight, dz morning i weight myself.

and i lost 2lbs more. so totally dz week i lost 10lbs.
i hope can do dz good next week. i wanna say
hello to 17X lbs. pls. pls.

i cannot bear to be fat fer even 1 more day!

conversation with love..

me: do u remember the last time im thin?
love: yes, whats bout it?
me: do u like it?
love: of course. u r damn hot.
me:...(thinking..)
love: i took u out everyday(we havent moved in together)
me: really???


to think back, yes he is. i do remember he took me out
everyday back then(when i was thin)! it make me angry
and wanna be thin again.

my meal today..

here's my meal today..

brekkie: 2 slices watermelon + a cup of tea
lunch: 1 serving chicken + 1 handful grapes
dinner: 1 serving chicken + combination salad(tomato/iceberg lettuce)

collarbone

finally i can see my collarbone...and im happy bout it..
yesterday love says he felt that im lighter while i sat on his
lap.. i dun know what to say.. im doing all this fer him.
i wanna he be happy. i dun want to be unconfident when
with him(u know what i mean). i love he so much. we've
been together for..7years..

enuf bout love, and i tried some of my old colth. some
of them can fit in them.

ana are rite, 'nothing feels as good as being lean'...

being lazy

well yes,im in the night off mode. doing nothing..
erm here's my meal today;

brekkie: 2slice watermelon + cup a coffee
lunch: 1fish(medium size) + handful of grapes.
dinner: 1 fish + tomato salad..

and if u hav read my previous post, plz dun be judgemental,
im still fat and is trying my best to lose it all...

my goal

some of u might not know my starting,current n goal weight.
so here's the summary;


my starting weight: 198lbs

my current weight: 182lbs

my goal weight    :121lbs

im not hungry anymore!

okey i know my title is kinda lame~ haha..

what i ate today?

brekkie: handful of strawberries+ cup a tea(unsweetened)
lunch: steam chicken + vege(cauliflower+carrot)
dinner: steam chicken + handful of grape.

as usual fer lunch n dinner i cook together and divide to two
portion. i marinate chicken with ginger,shallot,garlic,pinch of
salt and pepper. i throw everything in aluminium foil and
30mins in oven, its done. Voila!

received my bag!

hi. up there is the pic i purchase. and received it jz now im so happy. 

and the best thing is that i can keep my laptop inside!

weight in!

hello gurlz...

during vacay i gain 3lbs... so i did a very strict diet.
so dz morning. i weight myself.

im really happy. i drop it all plus 4lbs more. thats aewesome.
so i lost a total 8lbs. again. im so happy...

and if some of u were thinking, my body is kinda easier to lost
weight at the beginning of diet.. and now that im heavy,
the weight is sshhooosh~ down faster. when u r thinner its
harder to lose weight...

but what ever it is, im gonna strive to achieve!

online ordering!

hello guys....

since a lost a bit weight(so far 10lbs), i notice that i fond to
grooming. so when i saw online shop fer handbag, cloth etc...
i end up with ordering them. now im waiting fer a beau handbag..
jz paid and will received tomorrow... yeay!

i cant wait to fix my laptop. i want upload those interesthing photos!

weight in !(tomorrow)

hello guys.. tomorrow im gonna weight in and see whats my progress.

as for today i've eaten:

brekkie: 3/4 green apple + cup tea(as told earlier)
lunch: grill chicken breast + 3/4 royal gala apple
dinner:

as fer dinner i edi grill 2 chicken breast. so i ate half during lunch.
and save the other half fer dinner. but fer dinner i ll totally have
some vege (maybe tomato OR iceberg lettuce). lately, im so
lazy to eat vege. i prefer fruit. i love banana but cant eat much
cos last time i had banana everyday my weight stall... maybe
bcos banana is high in carbs!

p/s: im sipping my coffee.... with artificial sweetener.. of course!

so..so..so..sleepy...

i went home early from work. cos im damn sleepy.....

and last nite i had grill chicken+tomato salad fer dinner.

dz morning when i got home i take long cold shower...
make cup of hot tea(unsweetend)...and 3/4 green apple...

and then go to sleep..

p/s: my laptop still got no bluetooth... boring..

plan fer dinner?

well im thinking of grill chicken and salad. yummy!

gonna go out and see if there's any fresh chicken around!

night syif and my meal..

yesterday i started my nite syif. and yes i did'nt ate supper at workplace.

i jz had 1 diet coke cos im damn sleepy. and fer today meal

brekkie: 1 handful grape + unsweetened tea
lunch: 1 handful strawberry + grill salmon

the salmon i only marinate with salt n pepper. no oil added. then i made
myself big mug of coffee and sips the whole days...

i think thats all girl.. im still sleepy..

carbs for love..

hello all... ya i know its kinda double meaning...

but today morning love told me he wanna eat carbonara fettucinni.
so i went out and buy some groceries. i bought

1. fettucinni
2. prego carbonara
3. mince meat
4. fresh milk
5. huge iceberg lettuce
6. strawberries
7. grapes
8. royal gala apple
9. green apple(never fond of em,jz bought bcos they're cheap!
10. salmon

no.1 - 4 is fer love. the rest is fer me... 

and tonight im working nite syif... hope im not gonna be hungry...

maybe i l bring some fruit and dun have to eat supper my boss

has provided....

water fasting anyone?

well anyone heard bout that? well i found em on youtube.
they said fast as long as you can. the 2nd and 3rd is the
hardest. them it ll be easy..

during fasting you can drink tea, coffee and plain water.
tea n coffee only with artificicial sugar or plain. i think i shud
try dz one. n hope to lose 10lbs a week.

my plan is fast fer 5 days then eat natural food then fast again...

pray fer me people... cos im doin this for my happiness..

i hate being fat n being told "hey u look fatter"..

i jz pray whoever said that they will be fatter n gain weigt
all their life. i hate em so much.

im gonna shock everyone. even love family. cos
last time i saw em they said all damned thing to me.

and i hate all people who said all the thing to humiliate other ppl!

cos its a bad day..

girls... i dun know what to do. i google and found few tips from
pro ana sites. i kinda like fasting. but i dun know i can make it or
 not since my work is alot n its consist of lifting and walking alot.
like ALOT. but i never knew if i never try them.

i mean i want be skinny real fast. being fat make me feel insulted,
humiliated and not special. and i regret that i ate bowl of ramen
during lunchtime. so i thrown them all out. then have a headache.

so my dinner: couple spoon boiled rice+ stir fry vege

then i sips my tall glass of tea(with artifial sweetener). then it fill
me up until now. love noticing and he kinda sad cos im starving
myself. n he knew how much i love to eat. how much i enjoyed
food.. but not anymore.. nowadays he always ate alone.
i stayed in the room faking sleep o jz tell him i wanna go bath
o feeling not well.

i hope i can lose weight fast so that i can make him happy.
and im happy...

plz read, SERIOUSLY!!!

i mean SERIOUSLY!!!!!! plz open dz link and watch her.

and be AMAZED. like A LOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTT!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yj0kfK03EAo

new hair cut!

that's right guys. you heard me.

i cut my hair. seriously. my hair was too long for so long..
so i cut em from hip lenght to shoulder lenght only.

and when i showed love he say 'u look damn hot n sexy'
he hugged me and the next story was-----> censored!

easier fer me..

rite now im thinking about sticking to my wholemeal bread and egg

diet cos strictly with that i can lose up to 8lbs. and i need those 

for my the event im working rite now. so i think starting tonight 

im gonna follow that diet... again...

as fer today i edi had

brekkie: 250ml low fat milk

lunch: 1 medium bowl of ramen

*ramen is japanese noodles. 

pray fer me frens...

strict diet calling!

hello guys. im back! from vacay. the place was so beautiful....
but i also gain few weight(i think so).. but i still manage to fit
all my clothes. so starting from tomorrow im gonna be pro ana



(hehe)plz dun be angry with. its just for 1-2 week until i lost whatever
i has gain. and decided to do dz diet:

brekkie: 1 hard boiled egg
lunch: 1 can tuna light
dinner: 1 low fat sausage.


but fer dinner im thinking of having protein shakes. cos here at
my place they dun have low fat sausages.(so sad)...

weight in!

hello guys, dz morning i weight myself and i lost 2lbs. dats okay since
i know dz week i dun really eat clean. but i will try harder nx week
when im back from vacay...

tom im going. so plz dun miss me. haha? i did'nt know if there's
people been reading dz blog.

now 1.30am in the morning n im still packing my stuff. so sleepy
but i cant sleep yet. love in other world edi. he finished packing.
guess guys did'nt bring too much thing. haha.

dz what im eating today

brekkie: 2 wholemeal bread + 1 egg
snacks: 1 small cheese tart + fish crackers
lunch: 1 small bowl berm porridge + mango
dinner: 2 wholemeal bread + tuna light

p/s: today is a cheat day cos i read in other sites that when dieting
people need to have i days cheat day every 2weeks and it will kick
ur metabolism up.

that all guys...

aching!

hello guys. my body was ache all over. i think its due to my so called
'excercise' yesterday. hehe.

brekkie: 2 wholemeal bread + 1egg
lunch: soup(beef + potato) + 1 huge slice watermelon
dinner: grill chicken salad  + 1/2 boiled potato

im not keen to eat either. i just take food so that i dun feel hungry
later at nite. 10am i took watermelon(snacks). and before bed gonna take
250ml milk.

i think im gonna weight myself tomorrow. so.... wait for a gud newsssssss!!!!!!!!!

my weight????

well i really wanna weight myself. but guess i need to be patient.

huhu please come fast thurday morning...

real exercise!

okay. today i make a real exercise. here's the story.

my frens need to do some transaction at the bank. so i told her why
dont i followed her since i have a vacay dz thurs. so i accompany her.

to HELL it was far(we walked!!!). i think its more than 5 km. when
we got back at my workplace our uniform was wet out. like we jz
walked trough the rain. phewww....

 then we packed some lunch at a shop beside the bank.
i tell u the food was nice and so many choices. they got
beef and chicken kabubs, fried bread(with gravy),
various rice and noodle. but i only grab mineral water, 1 slice
watermelon and beef stew( 1 small bowl). and i also packed
rice fer love. he say it was sooo nice(happy). and here's my
meal today;

brekkie: 2 wholemeal bread + 1 egg+ 1 banana
lunch: 1 wholemeal bread + 1 small bowl stew beef + 1 slice watermelon
dinner: 1 boiled potato+1boiled egg+ 1banana

p/s: at last i finished the banana. phewwwww...

lunch and dinner!

hy all,

yester day i went out for few shopping with love, it was wonderful.
he choose a nice dress fer me. and he paid for it! it was a purple color.

and here's my lunch n dinner;

lunch: 1 wholemeal bread + egg n mushroom + 1banana
dinner: grilled chicken salad + 1 boiled potato + 1banana

p/s: i just bought banana. so ate them before they rotten.

sunday morning

hi..

its sunday morning. love asked me if i wanna get out fer brekkie
and have mcd brekkie. i said no n sat down hav my healty brekkie
while he also have wholemeal bread + milo. dats okay. he's not fat.

brekkie: 2 wholemeal bread + 1 egg + 1 handful grapes.

and did u know that if u eat ur fruit before ur meal it will up
ur metabolism.

k bye. im goin out to buy some new clothes for our vac nx week!

how to prepare your food

ok guys, maybe u ll be wondering "how can she lose 8lbs in 5 days.
so here's how;

1. no oil (any)
2. no sugar
3. eat only boiled, steam or grill food
4. take time and have 1 serving of fruit during lunch/dinner.
5. eat your meal slowly.

more tips tomorrow. i m sleepy now...

p/s: i ll post my pic later. now my laptop got no bluetooth (DAMN!!).

back to eat clean dinner

nite guys, love has fall asleep like 1 hrs ago. but me still awake.
since i ate out during lunchtime, and today/tomorrow is a off day
from work. so i decided to clean entire house.

yes, entire house as part of my excercise today..

3 rooms, 1 kitchen , n 1 storeroom. phewwwwwwwww...

then fer dinner: 1 potato + soup(chicken + enoki mushroom)

as usual bef bed i had 250ml milk. all was super yummy today.

so thats all and i hope to lose me weight bef my vacay nx week...

love u all muah muah

why me no excercise???

okay fwens, today i wanna tell u a bit bout my life.

see, everywhere u all see on fb, blogs,google or tv, they say if you
wanna lose weight healtyly and safe, do include some excercise.
as fer me, i dun really need them cos my work consists of walking,
running, lifting and bending alot. like ALOT!!!!

seriously. n my lifting could be up to 60lbs in 1 time. so count
 bebeh how many calories i burnt  in a day.

and again if ur work only need you to sit down all day at desk,
plz do get some excercise. its good for ur heart... n u ll lose
weight faster than ever.

eating my lunch out..

hello guys... today i went shopping mith love. i really notice i got more stamina.
as fer me i dun really like eating out cos i cant control my calories intake. i tried
to eat as clean as i can.

and today i told love that he have to choose 1 meal outside. only brekkie or
lunch. so he chose lunch. (he so prone to rice). so here's my meal;

brekkie: 2 wholemeal bread + 1 egg
lunch: 1 tofu with oyster sauce + roasted chicken + 1 small plum.

so back to eat clean fer dinner. okayyyy...

weight in!

ya i know. i shud be waited until monday. but i need to make sure my habit
drinking milk before bed is ok or not(really).

then i stepped on scale and its-------- wait for it.--------

legend-----wait for it--------dary!!!!!!!!!!!




1 LOST 8lbs in 4 days!!! VICTORY!!!!!!

WTFish...(update fer dinner)

hello guys... so i went out at 5.30pm.. n guess what....


i found a Salmon.. yeay fer me... \

dinner: 1 slice (1cm thick) grilled salmon + 1 potato + broccoli..

yummy.yummy.yummy. its a suprise fer me cos i never tought that eating like
dz is not bad at all.. its taste supper yummy and no guilt at all..

i dun know fer u people. but as fer me if i ate badly during the day,
before bedtime i ll feel so guilty that i cried why does i even ate
well u know, burger, fries, carbonated drink n all fried food.
but not this 5 days. im so happy.

n i told you people that before bed i drank 300mls of HL Marigold milk.
but now not that much. i only take 250ml. 300mls was too much fer to
handle. i kept goin to toilet.

i think that all fer now u guys, n if u r reading, plz drop me some message...

5th day eat clean diet

today is the 5th day of my eat clean diet, n so far i didnt weight myself yet.
i wanna wait till next monday. then next thursday i m off to holiday till sunday.
phewwww i really hope on monday my weight will be less at least 5lbs. cos
dz time i ate real clean. only real food. nothing from can or processed food.

i didnt even ate a drop of oil(any, not even olive). i didnt have any coffee,
 this was real hard. i ate only fesh fruit, fresh vege, wholemeal bread and potato.
not even rice. damn. dz is hard for me. i really adore proana girl. i mean how
could they be fasting for 5 days. man. dats real hard.


and what i ate today?

brekkie: 2 wholemeal bread + 1 egg
lunch: 1 wholemeal bread + 1 egg + 1 medium banana
dinner?


for dinner i plan to have fish or chicken soup. i l see if the store near my house
got fresh fish, then i l have grilled fish and potato n iceberg lettuce.

what i ate today n super bz life.

hello guys...

next few month i ll be conducting a course. so i need to be beau for that course.
and today im really happy with myself. why? cos...

brekkie: 2 wholemeal bread + 1 egg
lunch: soup(cauliflower + 1 egg) and 1 boiled potato.
dinner: fruit salad(strawberry + grape only, without dressing)

and now the habbit to drink milk before bed. i m so in love with HL marigold.
its milk without the cow smell. hehe

nervous

so guys. im nervous what is my weight now. i planned to weight myself next mon.
cos i wish to give my body sometime before i check my weight n be disappointed.

for me i think 2kg is enuf for me n i ll be so happy. but i wish to lose 20kg.
and yes i have done that bef n definately will do that again. i target to get that in
4 months. *praying*

and i think u all can see how much i love fruits. i love fruits so much. but i cant eat them
so much cos fruit have quite high carbs. so i limited them only 1 serving during lunch and dinner.

some ppl really hate carbs. i read in other sites where the do their diet with no carbs at all.
i mean its hard to see they wrote they ate fried chicken and omellette all day. its weird.
how can they digest it. i mean i rather hate oil than carbs. carbs make me happy.
and good carbs from milk and fruit make make my skin, hair n nail beautiful.
i wanna be beau n healty. the other girl i saw have lots of pimple after she lost weight.
i mean whats the point being thin n ugly(yes i know i am mean). but please, do something
good for your body. u cant simply buy other body and live with it.

and again, i dun hate carbs. i love it.

yippeee for today -too-

so here's another yippee for me today cos i had another day of 'eat clean'.

i think its the longest so far (weee).

brekkie: 2 wholemeal bread + 1 egg

lunch: 1 boiled potato + 1 egg + fresh fruit(star fruit/guava)

dinner: chicken soup [chicken(trimmed fat)/potato] + 1 medium banana

its all so yummy n i had snacks handful of starwberries around 60kcal.

tomorrow i l plan to have cauliflower during lunch time.

its time of the month..

well for ladies. dz is the most horrible time of the monthh. u ll feel ugly.
fatter. mood swings.. all becoz of the period.

but the only good thing it did was---------- loss of apetite!

yesterday n today was a victory!!!!

for yesterday:

brekkie: 2 wholemeal bread + 1 egg
lunch: 1 wholemeal bread + 1 egg
dinner: grilled chicken salad(lots of salad)

and as usual i have my 300ml low fat milk n its 150kcal only! supper yummy.


for today:

brekkie: 2 wholemeal bread + 1 egg
lunch: 1 wholemeal bread + 1 egg + 1 small apple
dinner: 1 medium bowl of tomyum soup(chicken + cauliflower + broccoli)

and they all are super YUMMY!

tomorrow i ll have same brekkie and planning to replace bread with potato(boiled) during lunch.
now the potato is boiling in my kitchen.

*YAY* for me!!!!!!!!!!

tomorrow...

tomorrow is a new day for me... long time not goin to work.
n since friday i started noticing all my cloth was loose a bit *yay*!

then tom is my plan.

brekkie: 1 egg, 2 toast
lunch: 1 egg, 1 toast
dinner: only milk.

start praying now..

hola

i guess when u fall sick the weight jz go down without noticing,
as for me i had my wisdom tooth taken out. n i sware it like dying.
for three days i only ate porridge n low fat milk. of course the doctor told
me to have ice cream. but  no way i l take it. its too sweet. n too fattening.

after 3days my weight was down 2kg(4lbs) n now i still maintaining it.
phewww... why in the earth women have issue with weight.

as for today:

brekkie: 2 wholemeal bread + 1 scramble egg(1 tbsp olive oil)
lunch: 4oz porridge + 1 grill fish + 2 slice cucumber
dinner: 1 handful or grape.

thats it n before bed im gonna have 250ml low fat milk(125kcal).
i need the habit for my teeth. and i think i stay below 1000kcal today.
but tomorrow i l have 500kcal. ONLY. hehe. if i have more than that
i ll do hardcore excercise. i really do.

story mory

ok. i have a little secret to tell u guys. long ago. like 4 years ago im weight
85kg. and i was sooo obese.. but yes i did have boyfriends. which is still my love now.

so i decided to lose some weight. i did lose. not some. but i lost 28kg. and people was stunned.
so jealous.. how i did that? in only 4 months, i only ate like this:

brekkie: 2 wholemeal bread + 1 boiled egg + 200ml low fat milk.
lunch    : 1 wholemeal bread + 1 boiled egg + 1 apple/orange/banana
dinner   : in the beginning i ate vege soup. towards the end i ate nothing n sleep on empty stomach.

so i dig my old food diary n i think i shud start them again since i gain all that again.
and even more. damn it. so tomorrow is a new day for my life.

i wanna be beautiful
i wanna walk confidently
i wanna be adore
i wanna be skinny
i wanna fit my skinny jeans
i wanna wore mini dress
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rewards

im thinking of a reward after i reach my ideal weight.

1. blackberry phones
2. samsung 10.1 tablet
3. nokia n8

wink. wink. maybe i l go for blackberry phones. cos i wanna look trendy. hehe

toothache

damn hell today. my tooth ache like hell. so i have an excuse not having brekkie.
lunch i have chicken porridge and tall coffee(6kcal).

lunch: chicken porridge 268kcal +  coffee 6kcal


maybe i l have toast for dinner.

my hell frens

ok today was a normal day until my frens invite(read force) me to lunch.
what the hell. so i ate n i puke damn hard in the toilet.
after i get my self unsweetend tea. feel good.

as for brekkie i had fitnesse 150kcal only. my belly felt good.

so thats all n no more dinner for me...

and then i hav waffle with zero cal pepsi and what is wrong with me? i m not even hungry!

now im hungry. maybe i l have fitnesse 150kcal. damn it!