menu fer tomorrow..

i plan dz fer tomorrow..

brekkie: 1 egg + 1 coffee
lunch: unsweetend tea
dinner: low cal latte.

kinda liquid diet... heee

back to ana

hello all... im gonna be back to ana since eat clean bring no good
to me. i didnt lose any weight but not gaining any.

or izit i hit plateau edi???

my new addiction

Jilian Micheals 30day shred. tomorrow i l try
 with no carbs n let u all know the result. i hope can
lose a lot with that.

eat clean!

hello all, currently im in the eat clean challenge.
so i have to keep updating. update.update n update!

not so success..

today was not so success. after done JM 30 day level 1.
i felt so hungry. that i ate anything within my reach.
i not dare weight myself. will try my best tomorrow!

eat clean!

so today i start on a journey to eat clean.
as fer brekkie i had oat+milk. i wanna see how
long it can fill me up. im gonna update again tonite!

Jilian Micheals!

yep. jz finished JM 30 day shred. level 1.
i felt good. gonna try this fer 30 days.
wanna see whats its goog it gonna do to me.

i hope to break my pleateau very soon.
i felt very beau after finished the workout.
and im so happy!

ex-boyfriend!

yer. u heard me. jz now he saw my latest pic on fb.
then straight away he say i look fat! i mean why would
he said something like that? myb cos i dumped him before.

arghhhh i hate dz feelin'. i feel like a real loser..
cant wait to be thin. so tomorrow better be a good day
fer me. if not u better die!

stick to old diet

stalled

my weight loss has stall.. last week by dz time i has lost
6lbs. so i decided to keep changing my diet every week.

or maybe i shud do ABC diet,. so that i can trick my metabolism..
but for sure my diet consist of no oil at all...

during dinner i feel so longing to eat rice,fries.. etc..
but i dun want to hate myself after that.. so i ate
only banana n im happy rite now..

i dun know what happened to me now. everytime i wanna
eat, i feel so scared. i dun think so i scare to food..
it jz that like i told u ealier, i hate myself after i ate.

i kept thinking "will this pile me later?". even the
food that im staring at is FRUIT. damn it.

now i even hate chicken. that when i grilled chicken
breast, i will divide them to four, ate 1 piece and
gave the rest to love. he look worried..

i dunno what to do..

happy today

today was not bad at all... here's my meal;

brekkie: 2 wholemeal egg + 1 egg
lunch: chicken salad
dinner: 1 banana

my chicken salad consist of boiled chicken,tomato,carot,shallot.
~YUMMY~...

weight in!

today 1st thing i did was scale myself. i weigh myself.
and im so happy that i lose another 2lbs. im so happy..

why i hate myself after i ate?

i wonder if this same thing happen to anyone else?

my bad n my 1st follower.

tq to Elizabeth fer being my 1st follower. i never
tell this little secret to my frens. so im glad that
someone is reading my little secret.. tq so much dear.

erm today was okay fer me at 1st, but then.. let see
what i ate 1st;

brekkie: 2 plum + 1 coffee(unsweetened)
lunch: 1 grill chicken + cucumber
dinner: 1 grill chicken + 1 tomato.


then.. my sad story began... love asked me out
and he insisted me eating cos he said what i ate
is not enuf fer my body. so i ordered spicy chicken
soup and unsweetened lime tea.. its was okay.

but the spicy chicken soup is real SPICY.
and i gonna weight my self tomorrow morning!

morning exercise

hello frens.. today morning i went out to bought chicken,
my stock has finished. so instead of drove to store, i walked.
turns out the place is not that far. cos u know, we can
shortcut here and there. hehe

so here's my meal today:

brekkie: 1 plum
lunch: ginger grill chicken + iceberg lettuce salad + tea
dinner: 1 ginger grill chicken + 1 plum

my meal and weight in!

well guys, here;s my meal today

brekkie: 1 small plum
lunch: 1 grill chicken + tomato salad + tea
dinner: 1 grill chicken + 1 small plum.

i dun know how to estimate my calories intake.
but i hope its less than 500kcal..

as fer my weight, dz morning i weight myself.

and i lost 2lbs more. so totally dz week i lost 10lbs.
i hope can do dz good next week. i wanna say
hello to 17X lbs. pls. pls.

i cannot bear to be fat fer even 1 more day!

conversation with love..

me: do u remember the last time im thin?
love: yes, whats bout it?
me: do u like it?
love: of course. u r damn hot.
me:...(thinking..)
love: i took u out everyday(we havent moved in together)
me: really???


to think back, yes he is. i do remember he took me out
everyday back then(when i was thin)! it make me angry
and wanna be thin again.

my meal today..

here's my meal today..

brekkie: 2 slices watermelon + a cup of tea
lunch: 1 serving chicken + 1 handful grapes
dinner: 1 serving chicken + combination salad(tomato/iceberg lettuce)

collarbone

finally i can see my collarbone...and im happy bout it..
yesterday love says he felt that im lighter while i sat on his
lap.. i dun know what to say.. im doing all this fer him.
i wanna he be happy. i dun want to be unconfident when
with him(u know what i mean). i love he so much. we've
been together for..7years..

enuf bout love, and i tried some of my old colth. some
of them can fit in them.

ana are rite, 'nothing feels as good as being lean'...

being lazy

well yes,im in the night off mode. doing nothing..
erm here's my meal today;

brekkie: 2slice watermelon + cup a coffee
lunch: 1fish(medium size) + handful of grapes.
dinner: 1 fish + tomato salad..

and if u hav read my previous post, plz dun be judgemental,
im still fat and is trying my best to lose it all...

my goal

some of u might not know my starting,current n goal weight.
so here's the summary;


my starting weight: 198lbs

my current weight: 182lbs

my goal weight    :121lbs

im not hungry anymore!

okey i know my title is kinda lame~ haha..

what i ate today?

brekkie: handful of strawberries+ cup a tea(unsweetened)
lunch: steam chicken + vege(cauliflower+carrot)
dinner: steam chicken + handful of grape.

as usual fer lunch n dinner i cook together and divide to two
portion. i marinate chicken with ginger,shallot,garlic,pinch of
salt and pepper. i throw everything in aluminium foil and
30mins in oven, its done. Voila!

received my bag!

hi. up there is the pic i purchase. and received it jz now im so happy. 

and the best thing is that i can keep my laptop inside!

weight in!

hello gurlz...

during vacay i gain 3lbs... so i did a very strict diet.
so dz morning. i weight myself.

im really happy. i drop it all plus 4lbs more. thats aewesome.
so i lost a total 8lbs. again. im so happy...

and if some of u were thinking, my body is kinda easier to lost
weight at the beginning of diet.. and now that im heavy,
the weight is sshhooosh~ down faster. when u r thinner its
harder to lose weight...

but what ever it is, im gonna strive to achieve!

online ordering!

hello guys....

since a lost a bit weight(so far 10lbs), i notice that i fond to
grooming. so when i saw online shop fer handbag, cloth etc...
i end up with ordering them. now im waiting fer a beau handbag..
jz paid and will received tomorrow... yeay!

i cant wait to fix my laptop. i want upload those interesthing photos!

weight in !(tomorrow)

hello guys.. tomorrow im gonna weight in and see whats my progress.

as for today i've eaten:

brekkie: 3/4 green apple + cup tea(as told earlier)
lunch: grill chicken breast + 3/4 royal gala apple
dinner:

as fer dinner i edi grill 2 chicken breast. so i ate half during lunch.
and save the other half fer dinner. but fer dinner i ll totally have
some vege (maybe tomato OR iceberg lettuce). lately, im so
lazy to eat vege. i prefer fruit. i love banana but cant eat much
cos last time i had banana everyday my weight stall... maybe
bcos banana is high in carbs!

p/s: im sipping my coffee.... with artificial sweetener.. of course!

so..so..so..sleepy...

i went home early from work. cos im damn sleepy.....

and last nite i had grill chicken+tomato salad fer dinner.

dz morning when i got home i take long cold shower...
make cup of hot tea(unsweetend)...and 3/4 green apple...

and then go to sleep..

p/s: my laptop still got no bluetooth... boring..

plan fer dinner?

well im thinking of grill chicken and salad. yummy!

gonna go out and see if there's any fresh chicken around!

night syif and my meal..

yesterday i started my nite syif. and yes i did'nt ate supper at workplace.

i jz had 1 diet coke cos im damn sleepy. and fer today meal

brekkie: 1 handful grape + unsweetened tea
lunch: 1 handful strawberry + grill salmon

the salmon i only marinate with salt n pepper. no oil added. then i made
myself big mug of coffee and sips the whole days...

i think thats all girl.. im still sleepy..

carbs for love..

hello all... ya i know its kinda double meaning...

but today morning love told me he wanna eat carbonara fettucinni.
so i went out and buy some groceries. i bought

1. fettucinni
2. prego carbonara
3. mince meat
4. fresh milk
5. huge iceberg lettuce
6. strawberries
7. grapes
8. royal gala apple
9. green apple(never fond of em,jz bought bcos they're cheap!
10. salmon

no.1 - 4 is fer love. the rest is fer me... 

and tonight im working nite syif... hope im not gonna be hungry...

maybe i l bring some fruit and dun have to eat supper my boss

has provided....

water fasting anyone?

well anyone heard bout that? well i found em on youtube.
they said fast as long as you can. the 2nd and 3rd is the
hardest. them it ll be easy..

during fasting you can drink tea, coffee and plain water.
tea n coffee only with artificicial sugar or plain. i think i shud
try dz one. n hope to lose 10lbs a week.

my plan is fast fer 5 days then eat natural food then fast again...

pray fer me people... cos im doin this for my happiness..

i hate being fat n being told "hey u look fatter"..

i jz pray whoever said that they will be fatter n gain weigt
all their life. i hate em so much.

im gonna shock everyone. even love family. cos
last time i saw em they said all damned thing to me.

and i hate all people who said all the thing to humiliate other ppl!

cos its a bad day..

girls... i dun know what to do. i google and found few tips from
pro ana sites. i kinda like fasting. but i dun know i can make it or
 not since my work is alot n its consist of lifting and walking alot.
like ALOT. but i never knew if i never try them.

i mean i want be skinny real fast. being fat make me feel insulted,
humiliated and not special. and i regret that i ate bowl of ramen
during lunchtime. so i thrown them all out. then have a headache.

so my dinner: couple spoon boiled rice+ stir fry vege

then i sips my tall glass of tea(with artifial sweetener). then it fill
me up until now. love noticing and he kinda sad cos im starving
myself. n he knew how much i love to eat. how much i enjoyed
food.. but not anymore.. nowadays he always ate alone.
i stayed in the room faking sleep o jz tell him i wanna go bath
o feeling not well.

i hope i can lose weight fast so that i can make him happy.
and im happy...

plz read, SERIOUSLY!!!

i mean SERIOUSLY!!!!!! plz open dz link and watch her.

and be AMAZED. like A LOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTT!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yj0kfK03EAo

new hair cut!

that's right guys. you heard me.

i cut my hair. seriously. my hair was too long for so long..
so i cut em from hip lenght to shoulder lenght only.

and when i showed love he say 'u look damn hot n sexy'
he hugged me and the next story was-----> censored!

easier fer me..

rite now im thinking about sticking to my wholemeal bread and egg

diet cos strictly with that i can lose up to 8lbs. and i need those 

for my the event im working rite now. so i think starting tonight 

im gonna follow that diet... again...

as fer today i edi had

brekkie: 250ml low fat milk

lunch: 1 medium bowl of ramen

*ramen is japanese noodles. 

pray fer me frens...