cos its a bad day..

girls... i dun know what to do. i google and found few tips from
pro ana sites. i kinda like fasting. but i dun know i can make it or
 not since my work is alot n its consist of lifting and walking alot.
like ALOT. but i never knew if i never try them.

i mean i want be skinny real fast. being fat make me feel insulted,
humiliated and not special. and i regret that i ate bowl of ramen
during lunchtime. so i thrown them all out. then have a headache.

so my dinner: couple spoon boiled rice+ stir fry vege

then i sips my tall glass of tea(with artifial sweetener). then it fill
me up until now. love noticing and he kinda sad cos im starving
myself. n he knew how much i love to eat. how much i enjoyed
food.. but not anymore.. nowadays he always ate alone.
i stayed in the room faking sleep o jz tell him i wanna go bath
o feeling not well.

i hope i can lose weight fast so that i can make him happy.
and im happy...